I did it!

It’s been a while since I wrote about booze and my no drinking journey.

If you have been following my journey you will know that after 3 months I was considering drinking again. It was always my aim to not drink for 3 months but then i felt so great and I was loving the benefits so much that just carried on. I also didn’t quite feel like I was ready to drink again, I felt a lot of guilt for even thinking about it and was a little ashamed by it.

I recently moved house and on the day I said to my husband I really fancy a drink to celebrate our new house. I felt no guilt or shame and I felt ready. Still nervous about over consuming I called my friend to see if she would share a bottle of bubbles with me. Of course, being the good friend she is she was happy to help!

We shared the bottle, I really enjoyed it. I felt that light happy drunk feeling, a little giggly. I’m glad I didn’t have anymore as I was have been hammered and the regrets would have kicked in. I didn’t have any hangover the next day and I slept ok. I convinced myself the next day though that my skin had gone grey 😆

So that’s it, I’m drinking again! I haven’t drank since then but I’ve wanted to! Mainly because work is full on and I’m home schooling and if you are doing both you will know what I mean! I will try not to drink than a bottle of wine a week. I don’t want bad habits to creep back in.

I’m happy that I got a point of feeling comfortable with the concept of drinking again, the 6 months was what I personally needed to change my habits. At the moment i feel have changed them habits but only time will tell. I could be back on the wagon before we know it.

What I do know is that I don’t need to drink and I want to drink when I want to drink rather than need it. I know how good it feels not to drink alcohol too and I won’t forget those reasons that kept me going.

One thing I still no is that I never want a hangover again so I’m hoping that stops the over consuming!

Emma xx