So, I left my job this week.
This is this a huge deal for me and my family. I have worked in the world of recruitment for 16 years. Its secure, well paying, I get to work from home a lot and I worked for a really lovely company. Why on earth would I leave that? I have got it so good right?
I have been crazy unhappy and bored in my role for a long time, if I’m honest with myself, for years! In fact, over the years it has turned me into a pessimist when I am actually an optimist by nature. I don’t feel my happy self at all, and I am clock watching through the days. To me, there is nothing worse than being bored. I feel a knot of anxiety within my stomach most work days. I’m not doing my best and I am letting myself and other’s down and I feel a constant guilt. It’s not the job itself, it’s me who has changed. I stayed for the money for a long time. If you have ever worked in recruitment, you will know that it can be very financially rewarding. My values changed and I didn’t even realise.
On the other hand, I have a lot to thank recruitment for. It’s made me resilient, hard working and a confident people person with delivering a good service above everything else.
What am I going to do? I qualified as a Nutritionist nearly 2 years ago and have been working for myself (Whole Health with Emma) as a side job alongside my full-time role. I then decided to get my personal training qualification so I could offer exercise advise too. Turns out that I am totally obsessed with personal training and did my level 3 and have just completed my level 4. Finishing this coincided with me having the shittest recruitment day to date, not hitting my bonus target, then my hubby getting a better job and I just felt the stars aligned, I thought if I don’t do it now then I will never do it.
Questions like what if I am unhappy in my work life for ever because I was too scared were going round my mind. I was more scared of having that regret than losing a bit of money. I want to do a job that doesn’t feel like work. I want to do a job because I love what I am doing, not because of the money.
So, Whole Health Personal Training and Nutrition has been born!! Eek!!! My real passion is to train women to learn to lift weights properly. To show them that there is nothing more empowering than feeling strong AF and why we should all be doing it for general health not just weight loss. I will be offering memberships that not only help with the body composition goals but offering the support that is missing from so many of these programmes too, I will help with the behaviours that come with trying to lose fat, I can help with nutrition guidance and education around it. I am so excited and have put so much work into making it great.
I will not be earning the same, unlikely even by half which is scary but we will manage. I will just have to drink the cheaper wine, buy less coffees and start box dying my hair again 😊 I know it will be worth it in the end.
What is the worst that can happen? It doesn’t quite take off as I hope and I have to get another job.
Watch this space for me new memberships this week!